have you ever wonder?

If Fed Ex and UPS were to merge, would they call it Fed UP?
Do Lipton Tea employees take coffee breaks?
If olive oil comes from olives, where does baby oil come from?
If people from Poland are called Poles, why aren't people from Holland called Holes?
Do infants enjoy infantry as much as adults enjoy adultery?
Why is the man who invests all your money called a broker?
If horrific means to make horrible, does terrific mean to make terrible?
Why is it called building when it is already built?
If a book about failures sells, is it a success ?
If you're not supposed to drink and drive, then why do bars have parking lots?
If you take an Oriental person and spin him around several times, does he become disoriented?

have you ever wonder what the answers would be?.. huhu..

Rahsia Hati..huhu..secrets..secrets..

This song didn't suit me much before..but it really does now..thanx to the one who gave it to me three years ago..its because of him..this song became my life now..its on the playlist..enjoy..

Waktu terus berlalu tanpa kusadari
Yang ada hanya aku dan kenangan
Masih teringat jelas
Senyum terakhir yang kau beri untukku
Tak pernah ku mencoba
Dan tak ingin ku mengisi hatiku
Dengan cinta yang lain
Kan ku biarkan ruang hampa didalam hidupku
Bila aku harus mencintai dan berbagi hati
Itu hanya denganmu
Namun bila... kuharus tanpamu
Akan tetap kuarungi hidup tanpa bercinta
Hooo... hanya dirimu yang pernah
Tenangkan ku dalam pelukmu
Saat kumenangis
Bila aku harus mencintai dan berbagi hati
Itu hanya denganmu
Namun bila... kuharus tanpamu
Akan tetap kuarungi hidup tanpa cinta...
Bila aku harus mencintai dan berbagi hati
Itu hanya denganmu
Dan bila kuharus tanpamu
Akan tetap kuarungi hidup tanpa bercinta
Tak pernah ku mencoba
Dan tak ingin ku mengisi hatiku

fuhh..can't believe i've been doing this all day

i've finally added an mp3 playlist on the sidebar..i've been experimenting with a few..for example..there's one from here..

the setup is very simple..first you create an account..then you can start creating your playlists..and yes..you can have several of them..you can browse available mp3 from its search engine..or provide the link to your mp3..you can arrange your mp3s according to your favourite order..and then with just the click buttons..you can get the codes that can paste into your myspace, friendster profile, blog etc..but the down side is..the player is not customizable enough for me..i need the player's height and width to be customizable to make it fit on the side bar..

so i made a journey to my friend's blog and saw his player..nice..his player came from here..hehe..tenkiu khairie..

it is also available for other types of media..in fact you can have all media in one player..fufufu..but mp3 player is enuff for me at the moment..although its licensed..it is free for noncommercial use..i hope i'm using it here noncommercially..hehe..the setup is simple too..all you have to do is download the player .swf and its script (sfwobject.js)..put them on your site..or wherever you host your files online..and generate the embed code here..
easy!..and its very customizable..huhu..

if you wanna make a background music for your site..just use the following code..

<embed src="yourmusicfile.mp3" width="144" height="74" type="audio/mpeg" autostart="false" loop="false" bgcolor="white">
</embed>

just increase the width and height so that your site visitor can use the control so they can stop the music if its not to their liking..

hmm..a delicious laksa is waiting for me downstairs..daa..

Life is like a Boat - Rie Fu (Bleach)

Nobody knows who I really am
I never felt this empty before
And if I ever need someone to come along
Who's gonna comfort me and keep me strong

We are all rowing the boat of fate
The waves keep on comin' and we can't escape
But if we ever get lost on our way
The waves would guide you thru another day

Tookude iki wo shiteru toumei ni nattamitai
(Breathing in the distance as if I've become transparent)
Kurayami ni omoe takedo mekaku shisarete tadake
(It seemed to be the dark, but I was merely blindfolded)

Inori wo sasagete atarashii hi wo matsu
(I offer my prayers and wait for a new day)
Azayaka ni hikaru umi sono hate made
( To the end of the sea that shines vividly)

Nobody knows who I really am
Maybe they just don't give a damn
But if I ever need someone to come along
I know you would follow me, and keep me strong

Hito no kokoro wa utsuri yuku nukedashita kunaru
(People's hearts move and want to slip out)
Tsuki wa mata atarashii shuuki de fune wo tsureteku
( The moon in its new cycle brings along boats again)

And every time I see your face,
The oceans heave up to my heart
You make me wanna strain at the oars,
And soon I can see the shore

Oh, I can see the shore
When will I.... can see the shore?

I want you to know who I really am
I never thought I'd feel this way towards you
And if you ever need someone to come along
I will follow you, and keep you strong

Tabi wa mada tsudzuiteku odayakana hi mo
(The journey is still continuing, on the calm days, too)
Tsuki wa mata atarashii shuuki de fune wo terashidasu
( The moon in its new cycle begins to shine on boats again)

Inori wo sasagete atarashii hi wo matsu
(I offer my prayers and wait for a new day)
Azayaka ni hikaru umi sono hate made
( To the end of the sea that shines vividly)

And every time I see your face,
The oceans heave up to my heart
You make me wanna strain at the oars,
And soon I can see the shore

Unmei no fune wo kogi
(Rowing the boat of destiny)
nami wa tsugi kara tsugi e to
(The waves assault us)
Watashitachi wo osou kedo
(One after the next)
Sore mo suteki na tabi ne
(But that's a wonderful journey, too)
Dore mo suteki na tabi ne
(Any one of them is a wonderful journey)

no strings attached

breath taking..amazing..smart moves..check it out..

urghh..i'm torn!!!!

which one should i choose!!! i'm sooo in love with Sony Ericsson S500i Mysterious Green..but but but..W580i has all the functions that i need!!! i am really torn..huhuh..

on the right, is the mysterious green babe..nice huhh..suits my taste..so in love..isk..isk..but the down side is, it doesn't have the FM radio function..i am really thinking whether i really need the FM radio function..my current phone has that function..but then i never found the time to use it..hmmm..
but then..look what its walkman sibling has to offer...



they look the same? you bet..in fact they share the same specifications..2MP camera with 4x zoom..and the exact same design..only different set of colours..the walkman series inherits the outrageous orange colour.. and the w580i has extra features like the FM radio, and the shake control..its like..well..a song from your playlist is randomly chosen at the flick of your wrist..its like..you can change to a new song with just a shake..sweet huh! you bet..isk..that's why i'm so damn torn..*sigh*..

wish money would just come pouring down..then i can have them both!! haha..
decisions..decisions..

looking at the past..

just like the title..i've been looking at my past..to why i became like this today..being thrown away..just like a doll without feelings..perhaps it is a punishment brought unto me for casting away someone from my life..someone who truly loved me for what i am..

i cast him away just because he trusted another girl instead of me..i don't know how..but somehow he got the message like i was giving a warning to that girl..duhh..and for that..he asked for a break-up..what a jerk..that was what i thought of him back then..yeah..that girl too had no respect for other people's relationship..why are they always in my life demit? so desperate ah? taking other people's boyfriend? dh x laku sgt kut?

i begged like hell..for him to accept me back..he did though..but on a condition that i must not make contact with him..not even once for a year..it drove me crazy..that i had to find somebody to talk to..which happen to be my latest ex..who encouraged me to leave that jerk..well..most of my friends that time encourage me to leave him..it was a very hard decision for me..but i do feel sorry for my self at that time..so i set my heart on it..

he brought his parents and came to see me..he even wrote a letter for me to read..God knows how touching it was and tears running non-stop..and how i really want to have him back..but..i don't know..my heart was so set up on leaving him..was it because i have another person? his mother asked me..i just..said 'no..not really'..

but perhaps it really was because of that other person..the person who was up almost every nite keeping me company and listening to me..the person who dragged me to slow rock cafe at nite and forced me to cry in front of him..the person who introduced me to One Piece my #1 anime now..

i know he went back home in tears..i know it hurts him so much..

i can't say how much i regret leaving him like that..he emailed me few times..but the truth is..i didn't check my mailbox until a month later..when it was all to late..when i have already made a vow to love no one but that other person..perhaps it was meant to be..that i didn't check my mailbox..i really can't do anything about it..though that person at the time was ready to let me go..i can't do it..i've already made a vow..only to be broken when i can no longer give him hope..

but it seems like everything was for the better at that time..my parents liked the new person..which was a blessing for me..but then..the sunny days became stormy nites..

and now i'm stranded alone..

i dedicate this post to my first love..i know you have forgiven me..but i still feel that i haven't apologized enough..i'm happy to see that you're happy now..and i hope you won't end up like me..now i know what its like..stranded alone..remembering every sweet memories with so much pain..that i feel apologizing to you will never be enough..

to my current love..its up to you..there's nothing i can do if your heart is so determined..i am sorry for all the troubled i've cost you..but if we're really not meant to be together..i really don't want to have anything to do with you..so for the time being..please give me time..give me enough time to settle my debts..and give me time to stand up properly on my own so i wont depend on you anymore..its all i'm asking for now..of course i really want you to love me..respect me..but then..its all up to you..thanx for everything syg..somehow..i can't stop loving you..no matter what you did..it feels so weird..but still..the love is still there..and growing..

respect

from wikipedia..

"Respect is an assumption of good faith and competence in another person or in the whole of oneself. Depth of integrity, trust, complementary moral values, and skill are necessary components.

Respect adds general reliability to social interactions. It enables people to work together in a complimentary fashion, instead of each person having to understand or even agree with every detail of another's method. And further more: If you dovetail things you get them working together. It is very important we dovetail our respective interests.."

huhuh..it sounds so complicated..so what is respect actually? basically for me..respect is to honor one's view..in my opinion respect is very important in a relationship..well you have to respect each other rite?

so what if both of you have different views? or both of you see the world differently? as long as there's respect..i don't think that should be a reason for you to say your relationship is going nowhere..no matter how angry you are with your spouse/boyfriend/girlfriend..respect must always come first..but we are not perfect..we always slipped and hurt people's feeling..sometimes without even realizing it..and most of that angry time..we disregard our respect towards our partner..(been there..done that..)

i have had this situation..where my ex-boyfriend went out with his ex-girlfriend when we were having a fight..he knows..that i think you shouldn't meet your ex(s) when you are in a relationship..that's my view..but for him its nothing wrong with it..i respect his view..i could let him be if he could only respect mine..by at least telling me he's making contact with her..or spending the time with her..

here's my painful account..i found out thru his email..its like God wants to show me something..he purchased movie tickets for two..the show starts at 930pm..i found out at 1115pm..without thinking i dressed up..unconsciously running while deciding whether to drive or take a cab..in the end i just prayed..that if God really wants to show me something..let this be smooth..right on..exactly when i reached to road side..a cab was in front of me..when i reached there..my instinct told me to stop at the car park..and i went in searching for his car..i thought i saw it..but i just couldn't believe it at first that i seek for help at the security counter coming up some strange stories..but then i wasn't mistaken..it really was his car that i saw..and i waited there..it was 1140pm..in just about half an hour..in my heart i was determined..if the one he's going out with is a guy..i'll take a cab home..but if its not..i'll leave it to God on what will happen..

alas..it was that girl..who in my opinion..doesn't really know how to respect and appreciate people..that girl used to dump my ex-boyfriend with insults and contempt..my ex-boyfriend at that time..who was penniless..who had nothing..scampered away every time he saw her after that..just to stay away from her view..who was she anyway? the daughter of a lord?..it was much to my disgust every time i saw that happened..

and now..when my ex-boyfriend has it all..money..car..good job..branded clothes..she made contact with him..get the vibes anyone? haha..most of the people whom i shared this with..said she's going to make my ex-boyfriend her spare-part in case her rich boyfriend dumps her..which i hope God forbids..because people who have the guts to abject other people..especially when they they are not in the position for it..is not suited to be with other people except themselves..a malaysian way to say it..who eats chillies gets the taste..hahah..

oh yeah..when i confront her..her reason was to make amends with him..yeah rite..behind my back..going out together with him..don't you know how to respect other peoples' relationship girl? coz if you don't..people won't respect yours..well..just take good care of your boyfriend girl..you won't want him to go away do you? and uhh..one more thing..relationships with your ex(s) who are currently someone's boyfriend..is not just your private life..you are interfering with another girl's private life..keep that in mind

i had a principle in my life that says..i won't contact my ex(s) especially when i'm the one who dumps them..but its been changed a bit an now became..if i want to make contact with my ex(s) i must let my current boyfried/husband knows and comfortable about it..if he's not..i'll do anything to make him feel comfortable..and if that ex of mine is already in a relationship..if its other than school reunions or formal meeting..i must make sure sure that his girlfriend/wife knows..and comfortable about it..(well actually the truth is..most women is not comfortable when they hear their spouse is seeing their ex(s)..)..so for me..its easier not to make contacts with my ex(s) at all..unless i really have to..i don't have to worry about hurting other girl's feeling..

so girls..rest assured..i'm the type that respects other people's relationship..and if you know about mine..then i would appreciate nothing more than your respect for my relationship..and to guys who are in a relationship..don't you dare to try me..coz if you do..i'll put you on my "men that cannot be trusted AT ALL" list..and publicize it if i feel like it..oh yeah..i'll find out about your girlfriends and tell them what you've been doing..perhaps it could help them decide whether to keep you or not..

ahh~..there's nothing sweeter than revenge..at times..

that's all for this morning's input..