Girl Language a.k.a MY language

When i dont call you
[ Its because im waiting for you to
call me ]

When i walk away from you mad
[ Follow me ]

When i stare at your mouth
[ Kiss me ]

When i push you or hit you
[ Grab me and dont let go ]

When i start cussing at you
[ Kiss me and tell me you love me]

When im quiet
[ Ask me whats wrong/Or mess with me. ]

When i ignore you
[ Give me your attention ]

When i pull away
[ Pull me back ]

When you see me at my worst
[ Tell me im beautiful ]

When you see me start crying
[ Hold me and tell me everything will
be alright ]

When you see me walking
[ Sneak up and hug my waist from
behind ]

When im scared
[ Protect me ]

When i lay my head on your shoulder
[ Tilt my head up and kiss me ]

When i tease you
[ Tease me back and make me laugh ]

When i dont answer for a long time
[ reassure me that everything is okay ]

When i look at you with doubt
[ Back yourself up ]

When i say that i like you
[ I really do more than you could
understand ]

When i grab at your hands
[ Hold mine and play with my fingers ]

When i bump into you
[ bump into me back and make me laugh ]

When i tell you a secret
[ keep it safe and untold ]

When i look at you in your eyes
[ dont look away until i do ]

When i miss you
[ im hurting inside ]

When you break my heart
[the pain never really goes away ]

When i say its over
[ i still want you to be mine ]

lifeless kah..isk..lifeless kut..

the starting of this year..aih..really annoys me..but somehow..i find it amusing when i could describe my feelings with songs..so i'm gonna put it chronologically in songs..huhuh..
yeah..i'm the music in me..mwe heh heh heh

first week 2008
April Matson - Will you remember me
Element-Rahasia Hati

2nd week 2008 - 5th week 2008
Letto - Ruang Rindu
Debby Boone - You Light Up My Life

6th week 2008 - now
Spider - Bila Nak Saksi
April Matson - Will you remember me

aiyaa..so down..so desperate to cheer myself..aiyaa..hate this feeling..kenape..kenape..kenape...

have you ever wonder?

If Fed Ex and UPS were to merge, would they call it Fed UP?
Do Lipton Tea employees take coffee breaks?
If olive oil comes from olives, where does baby oil come from?
If people from Poland are called Poles, why aren't people from Holland called Holes?
Do infants enjoy infantry as much as adults enjoy adultery?
Why is the man who invests all your money called a broker?
If horrific means to make horrible, does terrific mean to make terrible?
Why is it called building when it is already built?
If a book about failures sells, is it a success ?
If you're not supposed to drink and drive, then why do bars have parking lots?
If you take an Oriental person and spin him around several times, does he become disoriented?

have you ever wonder what the answers would be?.. huhu..

urghh..i'm torn!!!!

which one should i choose!!! i'm sooo in love with Sony Ericsson S500i Mysterious Green..but but but..W580i has all the functions that i need!!! i am really torn..huhuh..

on the right, is the mysterious green babe..nice huhh..suits my taste..so in love..isk..isk..but the down side is, it doesn't have the FM radio function..i am really thinking whether i really need the FM radio function..my current phone has that function..but then i never found the time to use it..hmmm..
but then..look what its walkman sibling has to offer...



they look the same? you bet..in fact they share the same specifications..2MP camera with 4x zoom..and the exact same design..only different set of colours..the walkman series inherits the outrageous orange colour.. and the w580i has extra features like the FM radio, and the shake control..its like..well..a song from your playlist is randomly chosen at the flick of your wrist..its like..you can change to a new song with just a shake..sweet huh! you bet..isk..that's why i'm so damn torn..*sigh*..

wish money would just come pouring down..then i can have them both!! haha..
decisions..decisions..

an evaluation of myself as a lover..

Orang yang mencintai kamu tidak pernah mampu memberikan alasan kenapa dia mencintai kamu. Yang dia tahu dihati dan dimatanya hanya ada kamu satu-satunya.

-yep i don't know why the hell i'm in love with him..but i love him more than i loved anyone..

Walaupun kamu sudah memiliki teman istimewa atau kekasih, dia tidak perduli! Baginya yang penting kamu bahagia dan kamu tetap menjadi impiannya.

-- hmm..hmm..can't let him go...

Orang yang mencintai kamu selalu menerima kamu apa adanya, di hati dan matanya kamu selalu yang tercantik walaupun mungkin kamu merasa berat badan kamu sudah bertambah.

-yep..i don't look at anyone else..sorry

Orang yang mencintai kamu selalu ingin tahu tentang apa saja yang kamu lalui sepanjang hari ini, dia ingin tahu kegiatan kamu.

-yep..every day, every hour, every minute, every second

Orang yang mencintai kamu akan mengirimkan SMS seperti selamat pagi, selamat hari minggu, selamat tidur, take care, dan lain-lain lagi, walaupun kamu tidak membalas SMS-nya,kerana dengan kiriman SMS itulah dia menyatakan cintanya, menyatakan dalam
cara yang berbeda, bukan aku CINTA padamu, tapi berselindung ayat selain kata cinta itu.

-always do..poor me..

Jika kamu menyambut hari ulang tahun dan kamu tidak mengundangnya ke majlis yang
kamu adakan, setidak- tidaknya dia akan menelefon untuk mengucapkan selamat
atau mengirim SMS.

-its a must to wish him on his birthday!!

Orang yang mencintai kamu akan selalu mengingat setiap kejadian yang dia lalui
bersama kamu, bahkan mungkin kejadian yang kamu sendiri sudah melupakannya, kerana saat itu ialah sesuatu yang berharga untuknya. Dan saat itu, matanya pasti berkaca. kerana saat bersamamu itu tidak bisa berulang selalu.

-damn true..can't count the nites i've slept with tears..

Orang yang mencintai kamu selalu mengingati setiap kata-kata yang kamu ucapkan, bahkan mungkin kata-kata yang kamu sendiri lupa pernah mengungkapkannya. Kerana dia
menyematkan kata-kata mu di hatinya, berapa banyak kata-kata penuh harapan yang kau
tuturkan padanya, dan akhirnya kau musnahkan? pasti kau lupa, tetapi bukan orang yang mencintai kamu.

-i remembered..but it was all a lie was it?

Orang yang mencintai kamu akan belajar menggemari lagu-lagu kegemaran kamu, bahkan mungkin meminjam CD milik kamu, kerana dia ingin tahu apa kgemaran kamu - kesukaan kamu kesukaannya juga, walaupun sukar meminati kesukaan kamu, tapi akhirnya da berjaya.

-mm..i don't even know any other spider's song except aladdin before i met him..now i love listening to spider..

Kalau kali terakhir kalian bertemu kamu mungkin sedang selesema, atau batuk-batuk, dia akan sentiasa mengirim SMS atau menelefon untuk bertanya keadaan kamu - kerana dia bimbangkan tentang kamu, peduli tentang kamu.

-of course i'm worried..he's not working office hours..his work demanded more of his time..and he does need to be more healthy

Jika kamu mengatakan akan pergi kursus atau menghadapi ujian, dia akan menanyakan bila kursus atau ujian itu berlangsung, dan saat harinya tiba dia akan mengirimkan SMS good luck untuk memberi semangat kepada kamu.

-your guess?

Orang yang mencintai kamu akan memberikan suatu barang miliknya yang mungkin buat kamu itu ialah sesuatu yang biasa, tetapi baginya barang itu sangat istimewa.

-do want to give him something of mine..but never had the chance yet..

Orang yang mencintai kamu akan terdiam sesaat, ketika sedang bercakap di telefon dengan kamu, sehingga kamu menjadi bingung. Sebenarnya saat itu dia merasa sangat gugup kerana kamu telah menggegarkan dunianya.

-i loved the silence between us on the phone..

Orang yang mencintai kamu selalu ingin berada di dekat kamu dan ingin menghabiskan hari-harinya hanya dengan kamu.

-i want to spend my lifetime loving him..if i could..

Jika suatu saat kamu harus pindah ke daerah lain, dia akan sentiasa memberikan nasihat agar kamu waspada dengan persekitaran yang boleh membawa pengaruh buruk kepada kamu. dan jauh dihatinya dia benar-benar takut kehilangan kamu, pernah dengar jauh dimata, jauh dihati?

-yup..definitely true..

Orang yang mencintai kamu bertindak lebih seperti saudara daripada seperti seorang kekasih.

-i did treat him like my little boy..

Orang yang mencintai kamu sering melakukan hal-hal yang tidak masuk akal seperti menelefon kamu 100 kali dalam masa sehari. Atau mengejutkan kamu di tengah malam dengan mengirim SMS. Sebenarnya ketika itu dia sedang memikirkan kamu (merinduimu).

-always..i don't mind making even a thousand calls..but he does..

Orang yang mencintai kamu kadang-kadang merindukan kamu dan melakukan hal-hal yang membuat kamu pening kepala. Namun ketika kamu mengatakan tindakannya itu membuat kamu terganggu dia akan minta maaf dan tak akan melakukannya lagi.

-urgh..that's a bit hard..coz i always find myself repeating the same mistakes over n over again..

there you have it..an evaluation of myself as a lover..

a remembrance from my friendster profile

actually..i copied it from someone..haha..and as you can guess..its dedicated to that special someone..again..its for you sayang..

"Love knows no reasons. Love knows no lies. Love defies all reasons. Love has no eyes. Love is not blind... It sees, but it doesn't mind.

Three years ago..when you came into my life, my heart said, "I like you." As the days goes by, my heart said "I miss you." The moment I can't find you, my heart said, "I need you." And when I know more about you, my heart says, "I LOVE YOU."

Three years ago..when I saw you, I was afraid to look at you. When I looked at you, I was afraid to touch you. When I touched you, I was afraid to kiss you. When I kissed you, I was afraid to love you. Now that I love you, I am afraid I can't lose you."