sayonara..2007..

2007 engraved some of the most painful memories of my life..
from a wedding planning in March..to a resolution of no wedding in November..
everyday i kept thinking..should i let go?
and every time i did..my little heart says..keep praying..God is listening..
and every time i did..tears roll..
coz every time i did..i see the beauty of love..

i don't want this love to go to waste..
so i keep praying..i keep hoping God would answer my prayers..
but then again..we are just humans..
and God has plans for each and every one of us..
i always pray that God would count my prayers in His plan for me..
huhuh..sounds lame..but that's what i always hoped for..

i tried to smile..i tried to laugh..
but in the end of the day i'm filled with tears..
so God please help me through the coming year..
as You had help me in the past..

"kasih sayang tiada batasan..tapi kasih sayang yang tiada batasan tu lebih bermakna jika diberikan kepada seorang yg sangat istimewa.."

quick updates!

this one's gonna be a hell long post..hahah..too much too look back actually..but i'll start from where i've left off okay...

17th September 2007

I received the report for duty letter from JPA..my reporting date would be on 27th September 2007, 8:00am, Auditorium Jabatan Perdana Menteri..notice how much time i've left to do my medical check-up and all? luckily my mom's a nurse..so i get to settle my medical check-up and reports in 4 days...

27th September 2007

though i've asked yam to show me the way to Putrajaya..i was still unsure of my way till i arrived there..and guess what..the whole place was full of cars..what's annoying was a lot of the cars there had people inside..i guess all those officers reporting for duty had family members waiting for them..but please la..that place was damned packed..those people in the car apela salahnye move along and wait somewhere else..its not like you can see them reporting for duty there..adehlaa..mcm first day skolah la pulak..parents duk tunggu2..aku gak yang terkial-kial gi lapor diri sensorang..dahla lambat psl xde tempat parking..inconsiderate!! fortunately the registration line was still long when i arrived at the hall..no harm done..

in total there were about 120 IT officers reporting for duty that day..we had seminar for half of the day..supposed we should be attending a week's course..but then it was fasting month..it would be tiring for them and us..during the seminar..the speaker told us that about 20 of us will be placed under the Kementerian Perumahan dan Kerajaan Tempatan and will be sent to rural areas..not so surprisingly..i was one of them..(i had a gut feeling when the speaker told us about it..instinct? hmmmm..)

after the seminar..i got myself a friend..and we went to the kementerian to report for duty together..when we arrived..there were 2 other officers there..th rest of the officers showed up the next day..

28th September 2007

my first day at work at kementerian perumahan & kerajaan tempatan..get to know the rest of the officers..and received the good news..no leave for the first working month..meaning..no Hari Raya holiday??!!..it was too late to buy bus ticket or train ticket..all sold out since the last week..i had to drive home which was much to the objection of my parents..but i insist on driving home..or i wont come back for Hari Raya..hahah..they had to give in..

13th October 2007

It was Hari Raya..i arrived home on hari raya eve..fortunately i was saved from driving home in the morning of Hari Raya coz my mom's friend's son was to accompany me driving that evening..
on the third day of Hari Raya..while my family were still celebrating..i had to pack and go back to kl..what a bum..

16th October 2007

back in the office that seemed to be empty..except for us..the IT officers..we filled up the hellish boring days with decorating the place for Hari Raya makan-makan..

22nd October 2007

Hari Raya makan-makan day at JKT KPKT..our department made the simplest dish of all..rojak buah..oh..i forgot to mention..my cousin also work here..but that day was the first day i've seen him at the office..huhu..his department brought lontong..

25th October 2007

Hari Raya makan-makan day with the minister of KPKT..quite a vast variety of food..took my time to have a go at everything..yum yum..

27th October 2007

Finally our posting has been confirmed..i got my first choice..Majlis Daerah Kinta Barat, Batu Gajah..about half an hour from my family house..we got all our letters..and we had a meeting with TKP I and Datin KP JKT KPKT..but i'm not sure when..forgot already..

31st October 2007

time to say goodbye to my friends..as we embark on the journey to our new posting..we also received a box of office stationeries..in case the Majlis poeple don't want to provide for the Kementerian people..ahakss..

5th November 2007

Reporting for duty at Majlis Daerah Kinta Barat..surprisingly they have been analyzing my details right to where and when i was born from my IC number..not really flattered but...eek!

bureaucracy matters..

fuhh..i manage to leave this poor blog all alone for the past few months...hmm..while currently i am in rage now with the bureaucracy of the local governments of this state..what is the matter with an IT Officer configuring a modem by herself..its not like i'm a damn know-nothinger..calling the TM staff will take at least 48hrs..and we need the internet connection to stay ahead of the others..hello? what's the use of having IT staff in the local governments if they can't be used to even configure a damn modem? still require the TM Net staff to come and do the service report and everything..what the f?? is this how the local government treats their human resources? by denying them their ability and make them stick through all those damn silly procedures? is this how the local government going to advance for the next few years? i really doubt it..

thinking back..i'd rather work in the private sector than with the government..but again thinking..working with the government...you gain all kinds of benefits..but in return you're just like a robot..especially in local-governments..if you're at lower-level..nobody's gonna even look at your opinion no matter how sensible it is..no matter how hot the meeting room is..the decision is still in the hands the higher-ups..

don't they realize the local private sector is far far far far ahead than the local government? to those government spy reading this ..think about it..i don't mind being sacked for this..but if you sack me..you are sacking probably one of the most valuable government servant in the future..i serve the government because i want to see the government change..and i want to be among the people who makes the local government be ahead of others..not just for the benefits i gain..